right now there is a young lady at my house who was forced to evacuate new orleans because of hurrican gustav. she's got me thinking about this hurricane more than i normally would. thinking about the hurricane has me thinking about disasters. and in turn i'm thinking about death.

not really death in the morbid, gothic, terminal sense. just the inevitable/mysterious sense.

i've come to the conclusion that for me, the afterlife option i'd choose-if life were a game show- is reincarnation. i'm reading the law of love by laura esquivel. it has a pretty amazing concept,which i'm sure has been around for millions of years, but you know me-- always the last to know :)

basically you spend thousands of lifetimes working, paying off sins from past lives, righting wrongs, growing, and learning. Then, eventually, the cosmos allows you to meet your soul twin. then you're complete. i haven't gotten to the end of the book, but i am assuming that you're both reborn to meet again over and over, and that would be the perfect eternity. it reminds me of what dreams may come... the idea that two souls can be drawn to eachother lifetime after lifetime is wonderful to me. once more, the fact that people spend present lives paying for past sins would explain why so many bad things happen to good people. i know that these are concepts that already exist in different religions, but for some reason, it just didn't occur to me to lump them together.  i've been saying for a while now that the southern baptist ideal of heaven doesn't appeal to me in the least, and that reincarnation seems like a much sweeter pot. i'm glad esquivel has thought about it a lot more than i have. i'll just borrow her ideas.

i know in the midst of all these disasters in the world, there are millions of people in the middle east, africa, china looking forward to a heaven with nothing but pleasure and rest.

not me. i love my life. i love everything about it. 

i'm 22. in two days i'll be 23. on one hand, in the scheme of things, that's young. i know that.

but i also realize how quickly my life is happening. that is my only complaint.

it's all too fast.
 

taliakit came to visit. she brought me a present! and she bought my costume for purgatory lounge. what a lovely lady.

speaking of purgatory lounge, a million people came. maybe no exactly a million.. but it was more than i've ever seen there before.
i got nervous at the sight of so many people, and i forgot the lyrics to a song I WROTE. i know. que ridiculoso. i've had some time to drink about it since then, though, and i think everything will be ok.

has everyone heard about this honeybee disaster? it was a main plot point in the movie the happening, and i watched a special on pbs about it today. i'm worried about the bees. albert einstein said humans would only survive four years if honeybees died. i don't understand how they can secrete things that are antibiotic and still be susceptible to ailment. lately it seems like everything that goes into or comes out of a bee is on the market, and it's all supposed to have amazing healing/restorative properties. it's sad that the little guys making all that magic are dying. and they say that bees are vanishing-- as in there aren't even corpses. how does that happen?!

i want to be a biologist.

last night the play went pretty well. the audience wasn't as large or as drunk as i expected, but hopefully that will change tonight.

ben rhyne is the friendliest famous person i've ever been around. he's quickly climbing to the head of my favorite list.
i promised i'd blog about  it.  i saw his skin watch. and i seduced him with my retainer... or should i say sedusched. yeah yeah.. i know he's a got a girlfriend. it's all in fun. schut up.

purgatory lounge is sunday night. i'm singing a cover of toxic. should be magical. it's a duet with ashley vaughn. we're singing it sultry style, with a bongo drum and some bass. there's this part where i have to whisper all sexy-like. i laugh every time. it's hard for me to be sexy, especially in front of a microphone. maybe with jUSST the right amount of whiskey...

anyway.. that's what's new.
muah.

i know i know... another photo request.

i thought i could wait it out and eventually i'd see some, but i'm not as patient as i thought.

i'm looking for some pictures from the most spankable ass contest. even if i'm not in them, i'd still like to peruse the photos of the competition.

thanks :)

i bought my first digital camera!!!


so.. um..          i was just wondering if everyone that was at frolicon could get together this weekend for a do-over. i'd like to document it this time.  


thanks :)

-mgt.

well...

it's been 96 weeks. seems like time for an update on the ole lj.
there's been such a gap it's impossible to update everyone through text. if you're really interested, we're just gonna have to hang out.

i'm home til sunday morning. call me.

i have tons of stuff to update about...

i'll do that later.

for now, wish me luck. we're going to play michigan state this weekend. they're only like... the second best team in the nation.

10 years ago:
- i was ten
- mr. verchot told me i was too pretty to wear makeup and scarred me for life
- i was in love with nathan royster
- i hated p.e. because we would always run the mile in the gym and it was 22 laps.and i was the fat kid. 22 laps! man. i wish i could run that now. i'd kill it.
- my mom was in korea.. i think

5 years ago:
- i moved back to alabama to reunite with my dixie posse
- i loved our english teacher!
- i knew all the words to BOTH versions of the fantasy song by ludacris and lil kim.
- i met lena (thanks to arriane)and the thespian crew

1 year ago:
- i rethought a lot of my life philosophy
- i started to really appreciate my family, but i'm still working on showing it
- i had my first long term relationship
- i spent most of my free time hanging out with rachel :) and i liked it.

Last Weekend:
- the colonel and the hippy came up to visit me
- i played in my first division I college basketball game
- my best friend got married
-

Snacks I enjoy:
- fresh fruit
- combos
- baby carrots
- does ovaltine count as a snack?

Songs I know all the words to:
- have you ever- brandy
- little moments- brad paisley
- just to be with you- mr. big
- hey mama- kanye west
if i could replace my song lyric portion of my brain with an academic knowledge portion, i'd probably be way better off

What would I do with 100 million dollars:
- quit basketball and pay for school
- buy my mom and dad this house they want outside arab
- bribe my sister to move back down to the south

Places I would run away to:
- Monterey
- erin's room
- HOME

Favorite Television show:
- adult swim in general
- CSI
- king of queens
- law and order!!
- the golden girls


Bad Habits:
- procrastinating
-i'll tell you the rest later

Biggest Joys:
- good weather
- new music
- quality time

Things I would never wear:
- a strap on
- a thong bikini
- mustard. i would never wear mustard.

Five favorite toys:
- my computer
-my cellphone
- my my cd player
- my car
- silly putty!

things I don't have time to do:
- have friends
- be a night owl
- finish my novel
- sleep as much as i'd like
- read

ve meet agane.

things that have changed since last we spoke?

i can tell that i'm getting a little buffer. consequently, i'm not as mad at basketball because at least it's making me a hardbody.

i discovered that not only are there very few white girls on my team, there are very few STRAIGHT girls on my team. oddly enough, both minorities are one in the same... so far.

turns out everyone thinks dude is an ashfork anyway.

mother nature skipped fall and went straight to winter here in north carolina. i miss alabama and her psu psu psuedio winters.

lately my days have been rated gee and my nights have been rated ex
in a few days i think i can intend a pun

today i saw wallace and grommit with the pops

last night i TRIED to hang out with lena, but she wouldn't answer her phone, SO i hung out with a dancer of the exotic variety WHO is a certified dental assistant/college graduate
i think we're best friends now

found a road trip partner for cali
marshall marshall marshall the machinist

i don't want to go back to north carolina.

i haven't updated in a long time, and i think my last serious post made me sound sad. i'm not. i swear. basketball is killing me a little at a time, but everything else in my life is going awesome. i posted that i got dumped. i did, technically, but "dumping" may have been the wrong word to use. i got a taste of my own medicine. i'm really not that upset about it at all cause i think i deserved it. i may be the only christian i know who firmly believes in karma. in fact, it was kind of nice to be on the receiving end of a split-up. i was tired of always being mean.

i do think i'm coming out of my "date around" phase, though. i'm single now, and i don't mind that, but i'm ready to try a serious relationship whenever the opportunity presents itself. i spent some time with my uncle donald and my aunt ruth this weekend. they have the best story ever. here's the condensed version cause we have to go sell a car:

uncle donald grew up poor in valdosta, georgia. he went to canada to work on a farm. the farmer's daughter was aunt ruth. she was dating someone else at the time, but uncle donald asked her to a dance. he was supposed to leave to come back to georgia in like.. two days. they had so much fun on the date, he asked her to come back with him. she said she couldn't go "like this" (not married). he asked her to marry him, they woke the preacher up, got married and midnight, and left the next day. now they've been married for like.. fifty years AND they have a huge ranch and like 5 cars paid off. i want that.

i got dumped.

i have a new AIM screenname. if i infected you with my dirty internet virus, i'm deeply sorry.

you may chastise me on my new name: holycalamitie

i couldn't remember everyone's sn, so if you want to talk to me and there's ANY doubt in your mind i couldn't remember your exact sn, message me first.

thankyouverymuch.





i'm SO looking forward to seeing you and the little babushka, lely!!!

i see that everyone else is complaining about their day, so let's look at mine:

5:45AM- workouts with the team (medicine ball situps, butt locks, around the world, front squats, clean pulls, glute hams, and floor chin ups). then out to the football field. we ran sprints to the 30 yd line pinching 25lb weights between our fingers relay style. next- weights above your head. next, tug of war with a firehose- loser does pushups. 5 times. THEN on the endline- football field suicides. (for those of you who don't know what a "suicide" is, it's a sprint to every line and back.) we sprinted to every line in mult. of ten, and jogged back.twice. so that is.. let's count.. about a crapload of yards.i led my group the whole way because I thought that was all we were gonna do.. then we ran timed 100s.i got 16s. then we did some more sprints because the coaches didn't think we were trying hard enough.finally, we were done.@ 7:30

8:00 class

9-12:30 chem lab

lunch

5:00 agilities (practice number 2)

5:30-6:30 post workout (practice number 3)
dinner

sleep?

then we start again. beautiful.

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in other news, i hope katrina left my chickens alone. bully.
i met a guy last night that welded with amish people all summer. north carolina has the coolest people/scenery and the lamest weather/speed limits.
i also decided that if i were going to live in a cartoon world, i'd live in futurama, and zoidberg and i would be best friends for life.

i think some hugging is in order. the next real life person i see better watch out.

this morning @6 we did weight testing. goodness.
we weighted in. i'm a fatty.
we did broad jumps. basically you just stand with two feet together and see how far out you can jump. lame.
i went like...66 inches? i beat a few people. not many.
next we did squats. heck. i'm as weak as it gets. really.
then we had a little ab workout, and we were done.
later today we're playing pickup with the coaches watching.

tomorrow we will max out on bench.

roughly 20 more months.... then i'm out.